15
May

Will woke up this morning with the bump, still strong and in full force.  However, as he listened to the music while I was cooking, and then came to write his blog, and then later ate his breakfast, the bump dissipated.  We were chatting at the kitchen table when I looked up and said that the bump was gone.  He reached back and felt the back of his head and could tell that it really was gone.  He prayed for healing, as I’ve been doing daily since before the surgery even occurred, now let’s just pray it stays this way.

We always both turn back to this song from Casting Crowns in times of life’s trials and tribulations, but it is ever so fitting.

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it’s still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I’ll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I’ve cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

And, we will continue to praise God in this storm, just knowing that he knows the purpose for our pain, our trials, and our lives.  We just pray that we are wise enough to listen when he’s calling, and know that he is always with us.

15
May

Yesterday and this morning have probably been the most pain I have been in in my entire life.  I have never experienced a headache and muscle pain like this before.  I guess the honeymoon period is over and I am now experiencing what Dr. Zomorodi has constantly been reminding me is the most painful surgery he does. This morning I awoke to my wife making my favorite breakfast and playing our favorite Christian songs.  I guess I am just an emotional basket case but I find myself pondering each song and bawling my eyes out.  Just reminded by each how I have taken everything for granted and not lived the life I should have and wanted to have lived and how merciful God is that he would take back the least deserving (over and over and over again).  However I know with my stubborn personality this is exactly what I needed to bring me closer to him and there is always time for a fresh start.  No matter how hard this trial is if it brings me close to him and puts me back on the right path I wouldn’t have it any other way.